I am finding it difficult to blog at the moment.  This is because I have entered the period of time known to bandsters as “two weeks of hell”!  It is the period where your appetite returns but where your stomach is not yet healed enough to have a fill.  What happens during the “two weeks of hell” period is the buyers remorse.  This is because you want to eat again, can eat again, and therefore you start to gain back (or gain back) the weight that you already lost.  The trick this week is to actually go on a diet… which of course… everyone knows… I have not been so successful at this before, so please don’t hold your breath!  The day before yesterday the cheesecake cravings came back full blast, right at me!  Remember, I have been cheesecake free now for a few weeks and now the the appetite back, I start to think about that cold, fresh, sweet, melty, creamy, delectable, yummy, fantastically wonderful, chocolate, fruity, smooth, delicious treat again.  I am thinking about yummy things a lot!  My mind is fogged again by food thoughts.  I explain, just incase you could not tell by my adjective filled description of cheesecake.

I am still actually salivating because the cheesecake desire is so strong, so overwhelming that I don’t have a lot of mental capacity left to actually give my full mental capacity to writing, being a mom, a wife, a pet mommy, a housekeeper or whatever it is that I am called on to be.  Food is taking over the space in my head again.  

For those of you who suffer from this illness, you understand!  You full well know why this is called two weeks of hell.  You know this fog that we live under.  You get how after experienced nearly three weeks of freedom from this revolting preoccupation with food, how mean it is to have it back again nearly as strong as before.  Mean, mean, mean!

It is no wonder why bandsters become terribly preoccupied by the fill.  Honestly, I nearly cried when I found out that the appointments were booked and that I would have to wait an extra four days for my first fill. I am suffering again with my addiction and I wish that I could just sleep through the next two weeks!